settling dust.

my messed up life occupying the past 7-odd months has finally ceased. well, maybe not exactly, but d dust has begun to settle. everything's falling (into place, i hope), n no longer hovering above me while i flailingly and failingly try to catch them all b4 they crash to d ground rite next to my feet.

i've established quite a strong friend-base. glad for that cos i kno i've stepped out of my shell. wasn't very comfortable in thr.

i've also made headway whr ICEMAN is concerned. i think he's beginning to thaw. VERY slowly, but it's a start. i juz hope that my efforts won't go wasted. as i told Lee, i sincerely believe thr's sumtin abt tis guy that i juz hv to be a part of. wish me luck, cos he's d 1st guy in a LOOOOONG time that i actually wld risk everything for. strange, but i'm willing to give up my hedonistic life for this man alone.

i've been having a very amiable relationship with d latest ex-bf. we talked on d phone yest while he was on his way to work and in that short time it took to get his ass from The Montana to Clarke Quay, we amazingly talked abt a gazillion things. like old times. we cld change topics a million times a min n neither of us wld get lost. superb communication technology. haha.. who says education differences matter? we understood each other like no one else can. hmm. did we, personally? i think we did. we juz pretended not to when we wanted things to go our own way. haha.. oh yeah, his "gf" (in quote marks bcos he's not sure himself) dzn bother me anymore. i mean, i dun feel as threatened n bitter abt it as i was initially. i guess my insecurities were assured.

yes, i'm an insecure bitch.

(and as if on cue, Marc Anthony's My Baby You plays.. Cookie used to say it's d perfect song for me)

i've resumed play on Project Rockstar. i was on holiday mode bcos i ran out of inspiration for my band's lyrics. so now i'm back. erit, rate One Side Deaf's Good Girls pls. thank u, darlink. d cash is rolling in, n i'll prolly get a label started soon.

i've started work on my room.

Phase 1: Out goes the junk. Accumulated over 11 yrs.
Status: In Process.

Phase 2: Out goes the furniture.
Phase 3: Paintwork.
Phase 4: In with the new furniture.
Phase 5: Reorganization. Especially the wardrobe.

Expected completion date: Early October.

buddy n i went to watch fireworks yest. super crowded. we got super whiny n irritated. sometimes i think we're both really lil boys trapped in a woman's body. haha!

current dilemma: continue with Phase 1 or continue with Mercenaries: Playground of Destruction?
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I'm not as disciplined as u think. truth is, i've been on d Xbox for 6 hrs plus n i SHOULD get some work done now. ahahha...