anticipation.

i've got my posting. i'll be teaching young punks in a secondary school abt 8 bus stops away from home. haha. a fren is teaching thr as well, n one of her students is my cousin. happy days, mate.

heading out today to get a photo taken for some card, n then i'll be collecting my pants from penin. got them altered. n then off to shopping - again! tis time, i need to find shoes n bags. i hv enough bottoms n almost enough tops. for now. but no harm looking. hahaha.. soooo wat's happening next week?
- 2-day course at an institution in far woodlands
- on wed i start teaching. (argh!!)

yes. i admit. i'm scared. so scared i'm shitting my pants. hahahah..
no lah. not scared. just first day jitters.

well. saw my fav french movie last nyte. n memories came back.
u said i don't give a fuck abt u.
do i?
to tell u d truth, i don't know.
i feel different knowing that u won't be thr to answer my call if i did, n tt u won't be replying to my sms. i feel dismayed that u won't be thr if i need u. n i feel lost not knowing wat's happening with u, in real time. but do i miss u in the right sense of the word? i don't know.

my baby pig has something big coming up. i hope he does well for it. he's been down lately n i hope he gets what he's working hard for.. tt'll keep his mind off his troubles. n if he gets thru, he'll be away in manila for quite sometime. i'm getting used to it, somehow. good.

ok need to get ready.